July 31, 2011

A week of enjoyment & fun...............

Our college tour was a memorable experience. In spite of the differences we were all together and enjoyed a lot teasing each other, playing pranks on each other and everyone else. Many places we visited has become a non-erasable memory in our hearts. While leaving Cochin, every one of us had just one thought- "Oh! how I am going to miss my family" but the moment our train started moving, we all were already into another world filled with fun and joy. One of the most memorable places which stays in my mind as if inscribed on a stone, is the Golconda Fort, which is a reflection on our culture and tradition and which is a perfect example of religious harmony. We also had a lot of fun at the NTR gardens. We also got a chance to visit the Film City in Hyderabad, the Birla Mandir, Char Minar etc. How we slept in the A/C coach, how we threatened the guy who kept following us in the NTR gardens, how we passed comments on the people in train, how we used to change our face at the sight of the "complimentary" breakfast and dinner, our aadha adhoora Hindi language, all this have become unforgettable and cherishing memories..........

July 29, 2011

a life changing experience

When i first stepped into St. Teresa's College to get an admission form, my words to my mom were "whatever happens, i will surely not study in this college". Maybe god didn't like my over confidence and he admitted me to the same college.... i was least interested in going there and by the time i joined, the classes had already started. I still remember the first day i entered my class. I saw many faces staring at me- some friendly faces and some faces with an attitude like "oh who is she?". I really wanted to turn back and run to my dad who was standing behind me, outside our class. But i couldn't do that. My first day was really bad. I felt as if i had come to an alien land. I kept waiting for 2:20 pm so that i can run back home. The next day was not different either. But slowly i got a few angels as my friends. Then they became my best friends, I started enjoying my college life and now when it is time to say goodbye to college life, I seriously don't want to leave this place where I spent the golden period of my life- bunking long programmes, going out for lunch with friends, birthday surprises and treats, passing comments on each and every soul coming in front of us and all those pranks we did together. All these are like strings which hold me back. Will miss you my dear STC.........

July 13, 2011

i have always felt being emotionally attached to people will always hurt at the end. It is not just a thought but i have felt so from my own experience. Even though i stay away from relations they don't stay away from me and when i move closer to them they give me pain but even the pain it gives is also sweet and enjoyable....... Even though i feel my closed ones mostly don't understand me, they always are there with me at all occassions

July 10, 2011

away away n away.......

sometimes i feel like running away from my routine life and going to a lonely place where there is a house with a balcony from where i can see and feel the rain outside and sit for hours without any problems bothering me, without anyone telling me what is right for me and what is not but when i think of the reality of my life, many faces come into my mind. the faces of some angels called family and friends who, despite their own problems and tensions, are always there with me at all times........... they give me a new reason to live, to face any difficult situation without fear and they make me realize that life is not running away from the storm but facing it with strength and confidence

July 7, 2011

trying to be calm.....

i don't know what is happening to me these days..... i keep losing my temper every now n then... last week i had a small fight with my sister for a silly matter n a few days before i shouted at my mom for no reason..... and after a few minutes i myself realize i was wrong n start weeping..... n then i feel why in the world did i do it? am i lost or am i going to a condition where in only a psychiatrist can deal with me? i have been thinking of all this for a long time but i never get any answer to it and finally i decided to stop........
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to stop thinking..........
to stop reacting.........
and the next time something happens............
i again behave in the same way........ don't know why........
GOD SAVE ME.............